To my sister Jill..
Sana nandito ka para nakita mo kung gaano kaganda ang buhay.. Minsan nagkakaroon ng problema pero nagagawan naman ng solusyon.. Kung alam mo lang, I really want to be a good “kuya” or “diko” to you.. Thank you kasi alam ko na hindi mo kami iniiwan, may mga taong nakakakita sayo na nandyan ka pero di nila alam na part ka ng family namin.. I know na masaya ka kasama si Kuya Jesus at Daddy God sa heaven.. Lagi mo ipag-pray si kuya ah at yung buong family natin na sana maging maayos lahat ng mga bagay.. Sana nagkaroon ng chance na makita kita before mo kami iniwan pero kahit hindi kita nakita, hindi ka nawawala sa heart ni kuya.. Hindi kita nakakalimutan.. I love you so much my little sister, mahal na mahal ka namin di daddy Ernie, mommy Lennie at kuya Jeric.. I know someday magkikita din tayo..
Others may think of any zombie invasion films or some may think of the Script’s song Dead Man Walking.. I think I feel like a dead man walking when it comes to her.. I can do nothing.. I can talk nothing.. I’m just like a stupid dead man the moment that I’m close to her.. But I’m happy every time I see her and it makes my day complete.. When I was on my mid year, I’m so excited of Mondays because I can see her because they will use our classroom after our class.. I still don’t know her name.. Until I found out something that makes both of us connected.. And so I get her name and her number.. Now, every time that I will see her, I’m thinking of what should I say to her.. Then all of a sudden, BOOM!! Mental blocked.. I’M A DEAD MAN WALKING!! But I love!! =))
I send a message to you, I just hope that you will not disregard it because I am thinking about you while composing it. Though it is not that important to you, I just want to keep in touch with you. I send a message to you, I’m hoping that you will answer it, I’m waiting here and I want to know if you’re doing okay right now. I send a message to you, a message from my heart.
“I love you” this words are really good words, when our family goes to sleep, we give and receive this words. ”I love you” these words are really good words, words that I want to give her too. I like this words and so I’m happy all day, I’m joyful all day, and so all day my heart keep on pounding. But I guess I wasn’t able to give this words anymore.
Do you know that feeling of I really really wanted to be that something to you but I think I’m just so stupid.. I can’t blame you either I don’t want to blame myself.. Honestly, I’m dying to be with you but I think you don’t see any effort from me.. But seeing that you are now happy with him, I can’t help myself to do nothing or think to myself did I make a wrong step or not?? For now, I can’t do anything but to watch and keep my eyes on you because time will come, you might hurt or fall.. I just want you to know that I am the one who will catch you and take good care of you..
On my previous post, I told that I should keep watching her.. I think I should not do it.. I’m only hurting myself.. Maybe it’s right to keep distance first.. Yes!! I should keep distance to her..
Sometimes I wonder why people leave like nothing happen between the bond of your friendship, why they do forget easily all the things you have done for them, they treat you today as if you’re the worst friend they ever had.. Why they do come and go.. Yes it is sad especially if they are so close to you.. Maybe, whatever the reason is, somebody will come who is better, who will make you happy, who will choose the same path with you, who will make you to become a better person, those people that will break the walls you are building around yourself.. And I think, here they are.. My NEW SET OF FRIENDS, and I call it as “Tropang Foodtrip”.. =))
ang aga namang birthday celebration!!!
YO BRO! Done with my VT Plate! YOOHOOO! >:D<
Ill be having my birthday celebration with my old friends tomorrow! Yipeeee! Haven;t seen them in years. :)